Dear Rachel,

Well its Christmas, and I think its days like this, certain songs, or even those special moments that happen from day to day that remind me how much I miss you. When I was calling all of my friends today I came across your name in my phone, I know I know, I haven’t deleted it yet but I told myself that by the time I finished this letter that I would. It still doesn’t seem real that you’re gone, its still hard to think that you wont meet my son, we’ll never cruise the Vistas again, that you wont be back to defend your Microage golf championship, and even though I still find myself talking to you from time to time (thought you could get away from that didn’t you) that you can’t offer your “tree hugging hippie crap” perspective anymore. I’m still confused when I think about you sometimes. There are times when I hear a song that instantly triggers a memory and I realize one of the great times we had. There are other times when I’m still angry, I wonder why you never gave me the chance to smack you upside the head for thinking something so stupid like you did for me when I would start acting like an idiot, or why you aren’t there when I need you. Sometimes I read your letter and I think maybe that was what you had to do to make the pain go away, I don’t know its just tough you know? Friends aren’t supposed to leave each other, they’re not supposed to break down years of emotional barriers, and they’re not supposed to make you see the Ocean for the first time while they watched you drift off. I guess at the same time friends are supposed to think of what you were going through instead of their own loss too.

This disjointed talk (I know you were used to them) is my way of saying I miss you.

- t.m


For those that have kept in touch with me through this journal I haven’t really been able to post much since September and I’ve decided on a fresh start that can be found at sungoingdown

"Maybe someday I'll look up,
And, barely conscious, I'll say to no one:
"Isn't someone missing?"

Goodbye

Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net

Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net

Clearly I'm working too late when I find this ultimatley hilarious while doing some work on a PC with a Staples warranty:

WHAT IS NOT COVERED

accidental or intentional physical impact, misues or abuse
fire, spilled liquids, battery leakage, exposure to weather, earthquake or Act of God

Act of God.... what the fuck? Does this mean this poor bastard bought a $200 extended warranty that wont protect his computer if it gets smotten, starts showing signs of Stigmata or gets destroyed by a plague of locusts?

Weak

- Have Good Mosh Pitting

Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net

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6. I’ll tell you what animal you remind me of
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1. favorite dance move... all time?

No doubt about, the best dance move of all time is the Me & Doucette two man version of the 'Broken Down Golf Cart' (best performed to French Affair - My Heart Goes Boom).

2. what would it take to make you cut the moolet. not just a trim, i mean a new style?

I don't know, I haven't found something yet *L* I tried something different for a brief period but other than that It's the Smytty hair all the way until I find something that makes me change it!

3. what happened to that giant straw cowboy hat?

What DID happen to that cowboy hat! I think Louise has the last known photographic evidence that my over sized cowboy hat (It was funny because it was bigger than a normal sized hat ; p) even existed. I think it's in the same resting place as the Undertaker (as Nibs, Nick, Shanah and Louise might remember).

4. how many times over are you going to hell?

Several, sadly every time I try to fight it I end up being the same piece of trash that I've always been! It seems inevitbale.

5. best party song evar?

This is a tough one..... the suprise pick might be Everclear by Santa Monica in that I don't always play that one around everbody but when it comes watch out for loud Hooligan singing....... I've always had some good ones, Me & Doucette's Fishin in the Dark sticks out there, Me & Pope's Last Saskatchewan Pirate is another close one, with honorable mention going out to our perfect rendition of Bohemian Rhapsody on Whyte Ave, but number one of all time is gonna have to be........

Bay City Rollers - Saturday Night! As everyone whos been drunk dialed by me (and usually Doucette) knows it's my line to either a) vindicate my own drinking or b) convince everyone to go out drinking since I apply the lyrics to every night of the week! You've all heard something like this at least once:

"It's only "insert event" once a year, Come on its TH,URS, DAY, NIGHT!"

And here's how it works if you want to join the fun:

01. Leave me a comment saying, "Interview me."
02. Post this explanation and an offer to interview folks in your lj.
03. I will respond to your comment by asking you five questions of a somewhat questionable or random nature.
04. You will post the results in your lj.
05. When others comment asking to be interviewed, you will ask them five questions and the whole cycle begins again.

it could have been a month or
it could have been a year but I
I gave up long before
long before you cared
I've been tired for days and days...

Feeling a little stressed out and or bored at work? Well fret no more! It's the game we've all been thinking but too afraid to create! Time to go beat some peasants!

Greatest Game EVER!

Sometimes you know she's the one

Ahhhhh cest.... l'amour.

Do you know how we keep warm in Russia Mr. Powers?

Oh I can Guess Baby

We play Chess

I guessed wrong.

While watching an episode from season three of Six Feet Under Brenda tells Nate

"I think it's all about timing and space"

This rocked me harder than I thought possible

Every now and then a special moment happens in our lives as men that just.... draws us together as a gender. That empowers us as a species and lets us know that hey "dreams do come true" and that girls are really like that..... god bless you ladies... god bless every one!

I knew it was true!

Canoe.ca reported this afternoon that Jeff Martin has left The Tea Party to pursue his solo career leaving a possibility of returning to the band in the future.

It certainly sucks hearing that your favourite band is breaking up but at the same time I'd be lieing if I said I liked the direction that their last few albums have been heading in. They haven't had a cover to cover good album since Transmission, a span which included the horribly mainstream Tryptich and Seven Circles, and an Interzone Mantras CD that has grown on me but still is pretty sub par. The whole "Hey lets work with Bob Rock, the guy who helped Metallica sell out" was probably not a good idea and I found that most of the songs on the new album that I liked (i.e Luxuria) reminded me of older Tea Party.

All I hope to dear sweet JEBUS is that I don't turn on the T.V. in 2 months to Rock Star: The Tea Party. That's got shooting spree written all over it.

- Have Good Mosh Pitting

"...And I feel the light
In the night and in the day
And I feel the light
When the sky’s just mud and grey
And I feel the light
When you tell me it’s ok

'cause you’re so great, and I love you

Sometimes I live in the past too much but it's hard when I constantly lay awake at night wondering if I'll ever fill the void in my life that she left.

The introduction

"Oh.... Excardon Me"

Senor Cardgage Mortgage

"Hi there Belindas"

"No Probalo"

"Home Lawn, Escrow, Re-Financin', you name it we got it"

"Low Rates, percentage signs, and I don't know.... whatever"

Senorial Days

"My left name is tremendous savings Miss America"

"2005, 2004, 1999.... Those were all good years, don't let another minute go you buy"